What a Journey!

Posted by Chalmer Frueauf on April 19, 2017 at 07:06 PM

To be honest, I'm not sure where to begin at so here goes nothing...

Ever since I was a little kid, I remember going to church every Sunday with my family, sitting in the pews, swinging my feet and playing my GameBoy until church was over. We would then go to my grandparents house, eat like kings, and then crash from a food coma. That was our tradition. I knew of God but I did not know God. Our tradition continued even as I got older. I became more and more understanding of God but still didn't fully understand what He was capable of. All my life I have been an athlete. I played football and wrestled. I've always been active and loved the feeling of accomplishment from winning after training your heart out. I attended Archbishop Moeller High School in Cincinnati, Ohio. Around my junior year of High School I begin to have back problems after a football game or a wrestling match. I soon found out Opiates (Vicodin, Percocet) really helped me with the pain. One thing I also noticed was I loved how they made me feel! At this point, I wasn't dependent on them just yet but I was in that direction.

I went on to play college football at Ohio University. My freshman year I found out I needed shoulder surgery. After that surgery, I remember the doctor giving me my prescription of 150 Percocet. Wow! Life was good... or so I thought. After those were all gone, it was safe to say I had become opioid dependent. I went back to the doctor for a check-up. I lied and said my shoulder still hurt and he gave me another big bottle of Percocet. Life was great...or so I thought. Once I ran out, I was a mess. I realized I had a problem with opiates. I had begun stealing my moms, buying them off the streets, getting them however I could to stay well. I had a problem.

In December 2014, I went to my doctor to explain my problem with opiates. He gave me some medicine to help with the withdrawal and to eventually get over the whole dependency thing. Well it helped, but then life took another twist. I was clean from drugs for 3 months after that. In March 2015, I was up at school and was introduced to Xanax. It didn't take long before I became dependent on those as well. My life went to Hell. I stopped playing ball, I quit going to class, I began secluding myself from everyone except those who I got high with. I literally revolved every day around getting high and being totally secluded from the world.

My parents became aware of how far off I was and thought the best option was for me to come home, attend Wright State and start completely over. I came home from Ohio University in April 2016. Unfortunately, life took another turn. In May, one month after being home, I was high one night and made a very, very poor decision. I was arrested and was facing a felony charge. The judge decided to release me, two weeks after being incarcerated, when my charges were bounded over to the Grand Jury. Three weeks after being released, I was on Route 4 one night, driving with a friend, under the influence of Xanax, fell asleep behind the wheel, went over a couple lanes and crashed in the ditch. I was arrested and sent to Butler County Jail. I sat in Butler County for a month, and because I was on Pre-Trial Release for Warren County, I had to go take care of my pending felony charges. I sat in Warren County for 3 months, and after a hard fought battle from my family, friends, and lawyer, the judge decided instead of doing 18 months in prison, I would be sentenced to a rehab until February 2017. It changed my life forever!

I had enough. I needed help. I wanted to get back to the old me. I had gone from a two-time football state champion, one-time wrestling state champion, a highly recruited wrestler and football player, to sitting in a rehab. I had lost all hope in myself and was sick and what my life had become. If it wasn't for my amazing support group, I wouldn't have got clean. I prayed, and prayed, and prayed. I attended church, read the Bible, spoke about the Word, opened up about my life, and God answered my prayers. Everything is finally back to normal, and even better. My relationships are so much stronger than they have ever been. I have an internship at a job for computer programming and I start school at Wright State in the fall. Life could not be going any better than it is and I give the full credit to God. He changed my life. I could have died the night of my crash, or overdosed, but God had a bigger plan for me. Also, because of ILC (Intervention in Lieu of Conviction), if I continue to do what I am supposed to do and follow the courts rules, I can have this felony removed from my record. God is good!

Never lose your faith in Him! Just because we can't see Him, don't think He isn't watching. He never gives up on us; we give up on ourselves. He changed my life and I know He can change yours. —Chalmer Frueauf